The first couple of weeks of September have been a struggle for me.
I’ve had to take some time off work and that has left me with little else to do than contemplate my life and the decisions I’ve made.
It’s hard because so many things in my life seem to be going wrong, but at least I know what the problem is and how to fix it: stop drinking!
The decision is so clear cut, but it feels like there are all these obstacles preventing me from getting sober.
Hopefully these posts will help me figure out those obstacles as well as provide encouragement for others who may be struggling with the same thing.
Daily Reflections September 7
We are there to sweep off our side of the street, realizing that nothing worth while can be accomplished until we do so, never trying to tell him what he should do. His faults are not discussed. We stick to our own.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, pp. 77-78
After I quit drinking, I made amends to my dad soon after.
My words fell on deaf ears since I had blamed him for my troubles.
Several months later, I tried again and wrote a letter in which did not blame or mention his faults this time around.
It worked!
At last, we both understood what the other side of the street was responsible for “thanks to God!”
As a recovering alcoholic, I have learned that there is no such thing as an “easy” sobriety.
It takes intentionality and effort to stay sober for one day at a time.
My dad was always my first call when I needed help with addiction, but the past few years it has been me who needs his support.
His passing made me realize how much he loved me even though we had our differences in the past.
Thankfully God gave us both another chance to make amends before he left this world for good!
Today I’m grateful for all of my blessings including having found A.A., because without them, trying times would be so hard on me right now..
