It’s been a few days now and I’m starting to feel the weight of my addiction. My head is pounding, my stomach is in knots, and I can’t sleep.
So many bad thoughts are running through my mind. What will happen if I relapse? Will this time be worse than last time? It feels like there’s no way out this time.
The anxiety is so high that it takes all of my energy just to function normally during the day.
But what sucks more than anything else about being an addict is feeling so alone with your problems even when you’re surrounded by people who love you unconditionally, care about you deeply, and want nothing but the best for you.
Daily Reflections January 6
We perceive that only through utter defeat are we able to take our first steps toward liberation and strength. Our admissions of personal powerlessness finally turn out to be firm bedrock upon which happy and purposeful lives may be built.TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 21
While drinking alcohol took over every facet of my life, it became the symbol for all that was wrong and perverted in me.
I came to realize one day when nothing else could defeat its power-that there really wasn’t any recourse except surrendering myself wholly into a higher authority who would provide guidance on how best to live once more without this slave master controlling us from within (Alcohol).
Once surrendered I found victory–victory over self-indulgence; stubborn resistance towards everything given including sobriety serenity peace…
Alcoholism is a disease. It’s not something you can cure yourself from with willpower alone, but when people do seek help from professionals and support groups, they have been shown to be able to live happy lives free of the temptation to drink again.
If this sounds like your story or someone close to you, don’t hesitate in reaching out for assistance today!